When You Run Away Only To Miss Him

He loves to talk on the telephone.  Sort of endlessly he’ll talk.  So you slip out of the conference to say hello to him, all of them, before bedtime.

You know it’s hard.  Those rushed calls with background noises on either end of the line that prevents you from catching anything but snatches of sentences and garbled words.  You “uh-huh” and “Ohhhh” as best you can until the call passes the ten minute mark.  Then you start to get a little impatient and stop replying with the same enthusiasm of a momma missing her babes and move into the tones of a rushed businessperson.

So by the time the kids are off and your husband finally has the line, you barely remember to ask him about that important meeting he had that morning and how he managed to hike to the farm with three preschoolers in varying stages of having colds.

You wrap up the conversation to hurry back inside only to sit in a room full of mostly strangers and your heart cracks a little that you didn’t spend longer on the telephone with the four people in the world who matter more to you than anyone else.  Nearly instantaneously you miss those jumbled, beautiful, competing voices.  Miss them hard.

It’s like rushed is your default now.  Life is caught in snatches with background noises threatening to drown it out.  Everywhere you go you catch yourself running in one direction only to miss the direction you came from.

Rushed has to stop being default.

And you have to stop running to anything taking you away from your true love.

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This weekend I went to a unique conference that is very precious to me because some of my dearest friends in all of the world are there.  I’ll write about some insight I picked up along the way.  But more than anything, what I received at this conference was a further confirmation that I’m needing to take some time for quiet.  My call to step away, from all the things that so easily entangle me, for a season.  A break from the leading and the speaking and any external commitments that don’t involve my four people or my job.  Because in all the busyness of this year, I didn’t just lose an urgency to serve my family with a passion, but I also lost the urgency of seeking God so regularly as to be certain of what He would have me do in any given day.

So I called them back.  And the next night I sat in the quiet of my room away from all the frenzy and talked as long as they wanted.  And I’m calling God back for a longer conversation too.

That’s all you have to do.  You call back.  You make time.  You stop rushing.

 

** As a part of my endeavor to rush less, say  no, and set fresh boundaries, I’ve decided to spend the remaining leadership Tuesdays this year doing a study of The Best Yes: Making Wise Decisions in the Midst of Endless Demands.  You’ll have a chance this week to win a copy if you’d like to join and gain some insight on finding room for your best yes.

For My Friend Being Stretched

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Dear Friend,

All too often, the stretching leaves you sore and aching.

You wonder why you’re doing all this stretching and if the ones asking you to move so far out beyond your limits even know why they are asking or if they have an achievable goal in mind.

I don’t know why you are being constantly pushed and pulled in this season.  I do know how hard it is.  Because I’ve been in that season too.

And a part of you really just wants to throw in the towel.  To stop working so hard only to be told your best wasn’t good enough.

You want to lead well, and up until recently, you thought you were.  Then this season hit and you aren’t sure of anything anymore.

I don’t know the specifics of your situation or if you are being guided by strong or weak leaders or if this path you’re on is even the right one.

I only know one thing in this leadership push and pull – keep your compass pointed at true north.

If you hold fast to your faith and your values and your core beliefs, the stretching will only test and approve that core.  These challenges will refine you, they will not define you.   {===>Click To Tweet}

I cling to these promises when battling through a season testing my limits and capabilities:

I am confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion (Phil 1:6).

Be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will (Rom 12:2).

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jer. 29:11).

Believing this, and more, for you today.  Keep stretching.  Hold fast.  Hang on.

We’re in this together.

The 40 Day Un-challenge

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I don’t know why every time around my birthday I end up in challenges or learning seasons.

Two years ago, 39 days before my 39th birthday, I embarked on the 39 Things Challenge inspired by an article in the New York Times about how we needed so much less STUFF to live on that we actually use.  I went back and read through all of those pieces of the challenge and saw how I had grown, but then how I have allowed all the stuff back into my life without any hesitation.  It reminds me so acutely that I can do anything for a few weeks, but it is going to take a lot more work, a lot better new habit development, and a lot more relying on God to actually get where I am trying to go: less stuff, more faith.

One year ago, I ventured down the 40 Days to 40 Journey.  I felt like there were some big things ahead (I had NO idea, this year has been an absolute whirlwind), and wanted to spend time focusing ten days each on being a better mom, a better wife, a better worker, and a better person.  Some of the stuff stuck.  Some of the areas I’m actually worse today than I was a year ago.

I don’t have any grand challenges this year.  Not until I can learn how to keep the new habits engrained and thriving.  Instead, I’m joining a good friend of mine’s church (virtually, they are in FLORIDA!) as they embark on Mark Batterson’s Draw The Circle: The 40 Day Prayer Challenge.  The idea is to draw a circle around a promise God has for you, and then pray regularly, every day for 40 days, about it.  Because all too often we pray about something and then fail to keep after it, and we forget to recognize God’s hand as it appears in a situation we prayed about.

I don’t have something specific I’m praying (yet).  I all too often fail on more specific ideals I plan or target.  I love that the introduction to the challenge gives you the permission not to know: Pray about what to pray about.  God will reveal a promise, a problem, or a person.  Then circle whatever God has prompted you to pray for with the same kind of consistency with which the earth circles the sun.

I’ll admit, I’ve hit a bit of a rough patch.  As I mentioned, due to a fair amount of travel this month you won’t hear a lot from me in the next few weeks, and it couldn’t come at a better time.  In this season of struggling, I’m craving the quiet.  I’m ready to hear what’s next.  So no grandiose plans for this year’s 40 day challenge.

I started Draw the Circle yesterday and read from II Samuel 22 as my prayer.  There’s a powerful excerpt in the middle of the chapter that, if nothing else, I’m praying.  Each Bible translation says it a little differently – this is my favorite:

They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support.  He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me. (NIV)

He brought me out into a broad place; he rescued me, because he delighted in me. (ESV)

 He brought me forth also into a large place: he delivered me, because he delighted in me. (KJV)

I have this picture of a wide open field.  Fighting uphill to finally encounter the vista.  And regardless of the words used for the place you reach, each version concludes with the reason why God brings you to this spacious open place: He delights in you.  He delights in me.  I can certainly pray, even without certainty, for a spacious place for the next 40 days.   

 

Photo Credit: Mike Cattell

How Darkness Tries To Crowd The Light

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When we let people or food or drink or pride or ignorance or materialism grow in spaces that are meant for generosity and discipline and patience and wisdom and selflessness, then we stand ill-equipped to resist the lion stalking us constantly.  When we abandon self-control, also translated as a sober mind, we lose right along with it the strength to resist the enemy from a position entrenched in our faith.

Writing over with my sailing dreamers at God-sized Dreams today, won’t you join me for the story?

The Words Series: Part 5, His Words

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Today is our final installment in The Words Series – thanks for sticking with me.  This week we’ve talked about how to speak with gracious words that are healing.  If we can’t, then less is more.  If we’re attacked by others’ words, then trust that God has us.  And never forget to say I love you.

Sometimes, that feels like a tremendous amount to remember.  Filled with a road of pitfalls and traps since many times that means we’re fighting instincts that come naturally to us (like fighting back!).

But we’re not in this alone.  God offers to speak wisdom to us, then to put the right words in our mouths, and then we will speak with wisdom and our words will be protected.

1.  Hear His Words.

You are my portion, Lord; I have promised to obey your words.  Psalm 119:57

You shall therefore lay up these words of mine in your heart and in your soul, and you shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes.  You shall teach them to your children, talking of them when you are sitting in your house, and when you are walking by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.  You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates, that your days and the days of your children may be multiplied in the land that the Lord swore to your fathers to give them, as long as the heavens are above the earth.”  Deuteronomy 11

2.  Ask To Be Given The Right Words.

You shall speak to him and put words in his mouth; I will help both of you speak and will teach you what to do. Exodus 4:15

I have put my words in your mouth and covered you with the shadow of my hand— I who set the heavens in place, who laid the foundations of the earth, and who say to Zion, ‘You are my people.’” Isaiah 51:16

As for me, this is my covenant with them,” says the Lord. “My Spirit, who is on you, will not depart from you, and my words that I have put in your mouth will always be on your lips, on the lips of your children and on the lips of their descendants—from this time on and forever,” says the Lord.  Isaiah  59:21

3.  Wisdom Through, and Protection Of, Your Words Will Come.

My mouth will speak words of wisdom; the meditation of my heart will give you understanding.  Psalm 49:3

 For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict.  Luke 21:15

The Lord was with Samuel as he grew up, and he let none of Samuel’s words fall to the ground.  I Samuel 3:19

Next week we’re back to leadership and fashion and random thoughts for the week.  I hope you’ve found a nugget in this study and thank you for allowing me the time, as Ann Voskamp says, preach this gospel to myself.  My hope, after a lot of work and practice and mistakes, is that I will be able to say, like David:

May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14