I sat at the blank screen for a while on this one.
I’m out of funny asides and nuanced language.
My best friend left me a vox telling me how to write this post, so I basically went back and listened to it three times to use as a guide.
Some of you already know this information. For some of you, this will be a surprise.
I was diagnosed with breast cancer on Monday.
I do not have a lot of information.
All we know right now is that it is Stage 2 invasive ductal carcinoma.
I had a mammogram and ultrasound a couple of weeks before Thanksgiving. They found something “of concern.” I had a biopsy last Wednesday. And my doctor called Monday.
I honestly hadn’t planned on writing here anytime soon. I wasn’t ready to talk about it.
But we told the kids at dinner Monday night. Which will still go down as one of the worst things I’ve ever had to do.
As a part of that, we gave them permission to process it however they needed to. If they needed to talk with a teacher or friends, then they had my permission to do so. Or not. Totally up to each of them. So they shared with some friends.
And of course we shared with our families and some of my closest prayer warriors. Then I talked to a few friends who have been through this.
Which means, it started leaking out.
Since I can’t possibly reach out to everyone that we love and care about to share the news individually, even though I wish I could, I’m writing here.
I’m a little overwhelmed.
I have triplets to raise and a marriage to foster and a full time job, and none of that stops with this diagnosis. I still need to keep doing those life things.
So I am sharing what’s happened, and this is where we are.
I will share parts of this journey here. Some parts aren’t mine to share.
I am very grateful for the phone calls and texts and messages and comments. And most of all, for all your prayers.
I am reading every single one of them, but I’m also not able respond to them all right now.
I’m also not ready to answer phone calls yet, so if it goes to voicemail know it goes there with great love and thankfulness for your love and support for our family. My best friend gave me permission not to reply.
I trust God.
I trust that He will use this for a good purpose.
He is already at work.
He is already doing great miracles.
I will be at MD Anderson with a great medical team on December 18th and 21st. Please pray for them as well. Please pray for my husband and my kids. They are so sad. But probably in a place where they aren’t ready to talk about it either.
I’m was worn pretty thin by yesterday, just emotionally depleted. But I’m better today – my darling husband took us for the most fun dinner where we sat on the patio and ate great food and laughed. We are still laughing too. I love you all and am tremendously thankful for you.