It’s not that I have run out of words. Because that certainly has been the case before.
It’s just that I haven’t had any time to write them down.
I still don’t.
I’m writing these few words to get them off my heart while half dressed with dripping hair.
It’s been a wonderful but hard few weeks. So much to be grateful for but also just SO MUCH. I’m incredibly busy at work and with travel and with speaking and with heading a women’s group. The eldest broke his wrist and the youngest is going through alternative treatments for asthma. Tee ball and ballet are still in swing with their season wrapping up soon. The last few mornings I’ve gotten up at 3:45. I was dizzy from exhaustion yesterday.
But I was holding it together. I know it’s all short term. I see the end in sight, and there are so many blessings. I had an incredible morning yesterday visiting with one of the highest ranking women executives in the world. Talk about a busy person.
What derailed me was one silly person. One person intent on tearing down instead of building up. One person unhappy enough with life that trying to pick apart someone else’s seemed like a good idea.
Isn’t that crazy? That one person could knock you off track. And maybe it wouldn’t have if I had been on guard and rested and in a strong confident place. But since I wasn’t, I just wanted to throw in the towel.
I called a dear girlfriend and said, “Why am I even doing all this? What on earth? Maybe it’s time to just STOP.”
She has being going through a similar situation and said: One person hating you can really take it out of you. Just knock the wind right out of your sails. So let’s just pray that God wouldn’t let that happen. That God would deal with the person and He would protect our spirit from getting zapped by the hatred.
I’m going to write more next week about creating community over conflict, but oh friend could we all just set out to do that today? Maybe heed our momma’s advice and if we can’t say anything nice, then not say anything at all. Because we’re all trying so hard. And attacking each other isn’t going to help the person attacking or the person being attacked. Let’s focus on staying positive and encouraging one another in love.
But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God.”
My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me.
Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.
Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity.
Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.